having a heart of faithfulness.

tonight, i am thinking about a lot of things.

thinking about a relationship with God, and what exactly that means.
….and my thoughts are wandering into how a relationship with God parallels to a relationship with our significant others.

does God expect us to be perfect? no. why is that? because we arent, we cant, and we never will be. it would be an unrealistic expectation. So what does he expect us to be then? faithful. but wait…. faithfulness isnt the same things as “being good” ie:perfect ?
…….my answer? i dont think it is. i think that having a heart of faithfulness is equal to having the desire to be what God wants us to be. so even when we mess up, even when we are not perfect, even when we experience those shortcomings that we are bound to experience in our flesh, we can admit them, ask for forgiveness and pursue faithfulness. because that is our heart.

Strength and honor are her clothing

to be teachable

teach·a·ble (tch-bl) adj.
1. Able and willing to learn
2. Ready and willing to be taught

today i was completing my tentative schedule before advising for the Spring 2010 semester. most of the classes that i was wanting to take were on Mon/Wed and with my mother watching tyy, i am needing to take Tue/Thurs classes. So i have very constructively found classes that would meet a Tues/Thurs schedule and felt successful in having done so. One of the classes that was already available on t/th though, was my Spanish 112 class. HOWEVER, when i went back to get all of the section and course# information, i realized that the Spa 112 class was not by the same instructor that i have this semester.

to some people, this may not be an issue – but i wanted to have the same instructor for many reasons and was more than disappointed to look at what i thought was a successful schedule and realize that it was not. — one of the last jobs that i had, i received an incredible commendation from my boss in regards to my teachability that meant a lot to me. and those words(because im exhortation) really helped to reinforce the value of maintaining that teachable attitude. so here i am, being grumpy because i cant have the instructor i would like to have for a course. but i realized something tonight,… being able to be taught and learn from someone who you may not choose to have as your “instructor” is part of being teachable. im sure i could go on, with a very meaningful analogy on this matter,… but ill leave it to you instead. be willing to learn. be open to being instructed. im done.

Strength and honor are her clothing

week 2: performance, or mastery?

this week has been most interesting. ps: i just got finished reading all of the blogs that i have not had the opportunity to read over the past week, due to my powerchord being dead and my comp being inaccessible, and i just feel like there are so many of you who i miss.. so much. the end, just wanted to share that. i probably miss you.

well,… where to start? i have been pretty dissapointed in myself this past week in regards to taking the time to study and DO what i KNOW i need to DO. and although i have made pretty good grades still on my first quizzes/tests i know that that thanks should be to teachers opening the year with ease, and not a reflection of the time that i actually put into preparing! lol.

my english teacher. did i ever tell you about him? he’s great. he brought up a concept in class the other day, that.. i really needed to hear! performance, or mastery? he proposed the idea that some of the students in the class may be prepared to complete the work and complete the class with a good grade…doing everything that was necessary for successful performance. but that what he really wanted to get us to see, is that to become involved with the class and what we were learning, thinking and essentially the concept of ‘above and beyond’ what was necessary for successful performance…. was mastery. idk. i think he probably explained it better than me ;D

but it got me thinking,.. because, no. i dont want to go through life, in regards to school or any other matter.. simply performing, or making the grade. i want to be involved in what i am taking part in. anyways;;; random.

so, just a few things to recap what has been going on recently: i havent watched tv in like a month *gasp* i kno, right? lol, i dont think i couldve fit it in, even if i tried really hard. it has been nice;; mostly because i didnt like the concept of wasting time in such an unproductive manner :/ so what have i been doing? i have been spending time with myself, and time with God. and thats been really nice, ill tell you more about it one day. i am learning, daily. who i am and where i am going. and i am enjoying it – i heard “everyone call’s him amazing, i just call him mine” the other day, and i smiled; jenn shared such a good post in that one. i hope to have a ‘mine’ one day. you know, in that confident expectation kind of way.

so i think im done now. are you performing or mastering?

Strength and honor are her clothing