Week 0

i am going to label this week, Week 0. how ironic is that? i dont even like labels. i guess it may make sense if i had been counting down until the time that school were to start, but i havent. but im going to start counting up, and since this isnt officially Week 1, i will call it Week 0. and now the world makes sense? or at least my title.

so this week, i am uber tired. because that wonderful sleep schedule that i had worked out,.. didnt stay around for long. my body just doesnt want to go to sleep at 9 pm. if you have any suggestions, id love to hear them. tylenol pm makes me feel like bugs are crawling under my skin.

also in new this week: if you didnt hear, i “burned” my hands on a set of metal monkey bars… which i suppose were so hot that they blistered and tore the skin from my palms within the time that it took me to get to the end of them,… and i didnt even realize it? strange, i know. check out the pic, its nasty. i also opened the car door in such a convenient manner that it hit me in the eye, which then bruised and now appears as though i have an abusive husband. i locked both my keys and my phone in my car at sheetz on monday. i locked only my keys in my house this morning. it has been the eventful week.

theres something else, but i dont want to tell you about that yet. what i DO want to tell you about however is… this summer i have more than ever, i think, since being on my own at least.. just been living in the moment. i understand this isnt something that can be done forever, this is a season. and one that i have been and will continue to embrace. in some ways, it has been challenging.. because im such a planner, such a “lets stop and consider all possible options before making a move” kind of person, a “lets put everything on the table and organize” kind of person. but it has also been rewarding, because i have done more(for myself) this summer than i think i have ever done in such a relatively short period of time. i have been to so many shows, and to the beach, days at the park, out with friends, reading books, working on art projects, making video’s, meeting new friends, catching up with old ones… i feel like ive had the time of my life and i was completely in the moment when that is such a difficult thing for me to do. this season is certainly not over,.. in fact it may just be beginning. but if there is anything i will say for sure concerning it, it is that i will be living in the moment and enjoying each and every bit of it.

have you ever stopped to feel your heart beat?

i mean, like really. can you hear the sun shine?

did i mention either.. that i found a job? every online site except for wordpress and i pretty much love it. not for the reasons that you may typically love a job; its not all that pretty or exciting :) — but its exactly what i wanted and God blessed me with it. so for that my heart is grateful… its like even through the past 8 months when i was trying to make my way and figure it all out, He still had a Plan.. coming through for me.

i think im done now. bye :)

Strength and honor are her clothing

what to keep, what to toss?

ok. i cant help but consider this in terms of “getting things done” — however, it has been like a year since i [listened] to that.. and i cant be sure that i completed it :/ ? heh.

but im cleaning today, and as im going through my things… one particular area that i tend to avoid because it is a “project” of mine. just one that i havent worked on. almost at all. horrible, i know right? — but the thing is that i have like…. e v e r y booklet, note, journal, workbook.. that you could possibly think of [from church] since i was…. 16 or so. i have another blog, see… the idea.. or “project” that i had and wanted and still do, to a degree. is/was/has been to organize all of those lessons and notes that ive jotted down through the years into a blog format. simply for personal use. but its never really happened quite like i imagine that the ideal way would.

so, im sure that somewhere in “getting things done” he says something along the lines of to pick your battles. i feel torn to throw them out because i think… alll of that valuable information!!!!(that i havent reviewed since at most a week after having received it) —- whats more, is that upon running across this stuff today and considering the option of just tossing it, the thought also crossed my mind that i have all of my notes from my favorite classes too!!! haha — is that crazyyy??? lol, yep, i have all of my notes from calculus and chemistry. ALLLLL of my notes from alll of my years of french. because i think to myself… “maybe one day ill need them”
*sigh* maybe it is crazy. is this what you call a packrat? i just dont think i can bring myself to toss it all just yet. my room isnt a mess though, dont get me wrong… it is all nicely organized on my bookshelf – but i dont know what the point is in me keeping it.

random. k im done.. bai ;)

Strength and honor are her clothing

lets update :)

alright, so i just wanted to throw a few things out there;; im currently filling out apps and it gets SOOOO redundant, so im taking a constructive break.

book reading??? if youve noticed the link in the sidebar, it is much out-of-date! there are a few over there that i have certainly not forgotten, even as they may have been put on a waiting list. wait a minute! “Fight Like a Girl” is the only one i have listed in Book Reading, but i assure you, my waiting list of ‘books-to-read’ is much longer than just one. i finished “Captivating” via audio and i loved it, going to re-listen… one of these days. i have a long list of ‘just for entertainment’ bits that i’d like to read as well as ‘because they hold valuable information’ type of books. this summer, however, i have read Tuesdays With Morrie (suddenly it seems as though i have forgotten how to properly identify a book in writing… quotations, underlining, italics ???? im at a loss. oh ninth grade, how long ago you were.) and am currently in the middle of Einstein in Love and The Verb ‘to Bird’ both of which i am enjoying sticking my nose into each and every moment that i get the chance.

for anyone who knows me, you may know that i am a complete nerd when it comes to learning, and etc (which is one reason that i love school so much) and so i would like to attribute a positive note to this recent being out of a job business. at first i went through some slightly morbid unmotivational issues, but now that thats gone and past – i have been diving into the world of job-searching like never before. – which is funny since this is what i used to do… for a job. i have learned so much about resumes and cover letters and applications, oh my. yes, it has been quite the excitement in my house over the past few weeks. — i have also learned a great deal about a budget and how to keep one! :) so thats pretty exciting, its a good thing… to be prepared and well-learned especially about things as important as money. my ‘budget’ used to consist of scratching down my bills each month onto a post-it! lol

my books will have to be put on hold over the course of the next month though, it seems. because i am wanting to read my psychology book before beginning the class. it is at 8am and… im still getting used to the idea of early mornings… im going to have to be awake, and attentive and learning?!? at 8am. i havent done that since highschool, and i suppose if i have already read the curriculum… it may help. so thats my plan — oh, oh! also – on a side note. i hate television. or television programs, whether it is on your television or computer that you watch them… same diff. it occured to me yesterday as i was thinking about how much i hate the amount of time i waste(its such a disgusting word, dont you think?) on pointless things such as television-watching that… when i was 18, at the point of moving out of my mothers – i didnt watch tv. like, no.. seriously. not at all –it just wasnt something that i did – the concept of having something on TV that you weekly contributed your time and attention to was foreign to me. i wish it were still that way, id like to say that i am cutting all tv programs out of my entertainment diet,… although i dont think that would go over very successfully.. so maybe id like to then say that i would cut it back to a certain number of programs, but i still contemplate what is too much what is acceptable – and i think, it must be ridiculous even to contemplate such things?! ehh, none the less.

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