so last night as i was walking the trash to the dumpster, in the middle of the parking lot at our apartment – the lights go out. like, every light in the entire city it seemed. i dont know that ive ever seen “pitch black” quite that pitch black. it was crazy. needless to say, i turned around and headed straight back to the stairwell which was(if its even possible to be darker than pitch black) definitely darker than pitch black. im talkin about i couldnt see my toes in front of me. yes i was bare footed and if i had a front yard id stand in it with a baby on my hip too. so ANYways. tyy was most definitely having a panic attack in the again “pitch black” apartment with nothing but the dull glow of the laptop to give him comfort… which was still probably not very comforting since the online game he was playing just crashed… either way, we still made a night of it.. lighting the candles and listening to music from the computer snuggled up in a blanket on the back balcony… its one of those moments that as a mom, ill never forget :)

i found this today..

and i wanted to share [click_here]

it kind of makes my heart beat… faster.

:)

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that is the number of blogs i have missed over the past couple of months. whew. talk about catching up

so i am finally re-connected to the blogging world, and hopefully will have much to say…. soon.

just wanted to give a warm hello; however, its like a friend to whom you have lost contact with for quite some time.. i may have to break out of my shell again :)

wanna know whats going on in my life?

i am now officially at dominos again. :/ hmm. it is interesting. i dont think i feel like sharing anything more about that – but it is 5:30 and i only got home an hour ago… trying to unwind… sleep will come soon

i am getting ready to begin school again and the closer the time comes, the more excited i get; i really want this to happen this time

speaking of “want”. i am really dissapointed in myself. for a lot of things; idk. its too much to get into really, but my basic goal setting and achievement – my poor track record of maintaining priorities – having a vision and following it. theres a part of me that wants to blame the fact that “i wasnt raised better” and none of this stuff comes very naturally to me, but that is SUCH AN EXCUSE and i HATE excuses. i hate them more from my mouth. id rather not say them and sulk in my own dissapointment. which is exactly what i am doing, rather it provides more of a solution or not. which inturn only cycles the issue. *totally rolling my eyes at myself* LOL

i dont really know what to say now. im tired. i have to fill out my school application. which i have successfully put off for 7 days now. ill do it tomorow >.<

ps. i spell tomorow with 1 r.

k goodnight, or goodmorning; whatev