4 things that will make or break the drama in your life

i received a letter in the mail today from my ex-stalker. i was wondering what happened to him -??- the envelope was handwritten, addressed to me(which is creepy that he has my address) and when i opened it up, i was thoroughly confused from the first lines “Hey girl, I know you mightve been wonddring why i havent come by for a while, but as you can see from the front of the envelope im down here at the jailhouse in raleigh, locked up.” —– im thinking, ‘i dont know no-body in jail!-?’ i had to re-check the name before i realized it was my stalker(i had not previously known his last name) — the letter continued in such a way that explained how he has 4 charges and none of it is his fault. rolling my eyes, the following blog came to mind.

1. the people you hang around with!
the last place i lived was probably the biggest deal-breaker for me on this issue. i had gotten to a place where i was thinking ‘i have a son now, im not an adolescent, im growing up, im losing the drama’ — right? WRONG! even though i had abandoned a lot of drama-creating mentalities, i was still subject to them because of the people i lived with.

if the people that you spend the majority of your time with are constantly having ‘this’ and ‘that’ happen, you need to evaluate that friendship. i they are involved in drama, the influence on you is not to become more drama-free… i hope youre catching the inference here.

2. what you do!
now, aside from the obvious — smoking crack, having sex(or pre-sex, including anything out of a pure nature[some of you really need to read that again]) killing people, throwing under-age alcoholic parties,….. the most important part of “what you do” that i am referring to, is actually how you take responsiblity for your actions. do you DO that? or are you quick to blame something(anything) on someone else? sometimes its really easy to get caught in that poor way of thinking too. it is important to take notice if you end up coming off with excuses(regularly), then you probably need to start watching ‘what you do’.

3. what you say!
if the words coming out of your mouth are not positive or pertaining to yourself(only), it might not be something that you should be saying. a really good check for myself is… would the person who i reference in conversation be offended by my stating the said piece of conversation about them? if your
saying “oh, by the way – that leadership conference was OFF THE HOOK! if you werent there, you should have been. P Micah gave an awesome analogy using P Connies tire.” — in this piece of conversation, do you think the tire would be offended? probably not. if however, you said “that stupid tire kept falling over, HAHAHAH talk about alignment!” — you should probably go wash your mouth out with…. battery acid.

4.what you listen to!
how quick are you to listen to a juicy piece of gossip, especially when it is presented to you without your initiative -? – sometimes that can be so… tantalizing, right? curiosity bites and you hang on to [gossipee]’s every word waiting to find out whats going on with sammy and sue. – they did WHAT?!? —- there are to many things that i know about other people that i dont want to know, because it was either stated to me before i got a chance to pinch the persons lips, or it was introduced to me as a topic in which i could offer advice. both of these annoy me. and not to drag on too obnoxiously long, the former should be nipped in the bud quick. dont let people do that to you, draw definite boundaries and dont let yourself be mistaken for someone who comfortably engages in gossip. concerning the latter, advice is not something that should involve peers. in fact advice is pretty inexcusable if it is coming from someone even relatively close in age range to yourself(as you get older you may even have to equate this to maturity and not necessarily age) ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS go to someone older, and possibly even experienced in the area of which advice is to be asked. someone your own age, is just gossiping. no matter how smart or mature they are, third person they are(it would only be involving an uninvolved person) or comfortable you are with them(find an older person that you can BECOME comfortable with.)

im a pretty black and white person. i understand that every action has a consequence(be it good, or bad) so when i see people who are all wrapped up in drama, there is obviously something that they are DOING that the person i see who is leading a well rounded, calm and chaos-free life is DOING differently.

its all a matter of the choices that you make.

i had this thought earlier. you know how(and for anyone who is mega-ly super competitive you totally know what im referring to) you get that rush of adrenaline right before you complete a race, or a game. a match of some sort. maybe even a project? that feeling… directly before you cross the finish line when your components are nipping at your heels, fighting for 2 inches. well for me, back when i used to play tekken all the time – it was those last 4 seconds of the match. when my bar and your bar were both red and it was only a matter of who threw the last punch – oh oh oh! get it! oh yeahhhh and youre totally dead ;) hahah

well, this is how satan feels. mmmhm. that entire rush of adrenaline, that somewhat of a panic attack, whenever he sees us passing a finish line. of course he wants to do something to throw us off the track – all the time. but moreso whenever we are close to and/or are making big accomplishments. he’s all like “yikes!”

my mom has this email that she has forwarded to me,… more than once… haha – anyways, it says:

live your life in such a way that in the morning, when your feet hit the floor, satan says “oh sh*@! shes awake!”

haha, all four letter words aside – i think its quite true. why wait until satan attacks to fight back? are we getting so consumed in our mission that we are forgetting to protect ourselves? of course this entire thought has personal relevance. but i know that i need to be speaking the word more. like, fluently, repetitively, and powerfully. oh yeahhhh and he’s like totally dead ;)

on a random but somewhat funny note*

i was talking on the phone with a girl i work with at approximately 1:25 pm during the day, and she was getting gas, and said “you know, its 3.36 in virginia” and i was all like “what? theres not a zone-change from here to virginia?-!” —- if you didnt get that…. then, im sorry.

earlier i was trying to think of a word, and kept entering it into google… confused when i saw the definition. because what i kept typing in was ‘epitamy’ and google would change it to ‘epitome’ with a definition that was far from what i was thinking it was. (i was so confused) about 5 minutes ago, i ALL OF A SUDDEN(which is ironic) realized that i was trying to think of ‘epiphany’

k, hope you laughed :)